It’s not really news to anybody that i’m desperately searching for something to do, so i grabbed myself a couple of movies to maybe inspire me.

Guess one did.

I’ve started listening to some The Black Keys albums and DAMN i love it.
They’re originally from Ohio, a two man group and they play blues, blues/rock kind of music. Here are a few songs i really like.

I forgot how much i actually like blues. I mean i watched my VHS recording of Blues Brothers so much that the tape eventually disintegrated.

And i guess because of this, i’ve come to the conclusion that there is absolutely no point in keeping the M3. It has to go. I’m done.
Cars have been my only interest as of late, so i have to make a major change here. I’m not going to give up on cars, but i’ll reduce my lust after automotive information somewhat and try to figure out what else is out there that interests me.

Enter motorcycles! Ok ok… i know what you’re thinking, but it’s not a car now is it?!

I’ve been into Bobbers and Streetfighters and such for a while. If you don’t know what a Bobber is, here is a great example.

Pair that with some badass leathers and a Rockabilly hairstyle such as

There is NO way you won’t be picking up some of these fine pieces right here!

Mmm… tasty

I would like to tell you about my first time. About my first love and the ones that followed afterwards.

I was maybe twelve at the time. We met through my mom. She was french and around the same age as me.
It was my first time, you know. Completely inexperienced, no idea what i was doing, but wow, it was great. I could not stop smiling.

Mind you, we were too young, so it didn’t last long.

Since then, i’ve gotten older and wiser. I’ve had the occasional fling with an Asian and Swedish, but nothing you could really call a relationship.

Then we all moved to the US. Now this opened a whole new world to me, really.

When i was sixteen, i met this British one. Boy, she was gorgeous. She was a bit older, more experienced than me. I learned quite a lot from her, to be honest. She had a great big heart, but in the end, she left me stranded a few times. Because of this, i simply couldn’t go on with her once i got done with High School. I needed one that i could rely on.

So i found this American chick. Slender, great looking, and one Firey Chick.
We hit it off great. Even my dad liked her. We had some great times, even though we looked pretty out of place together. Her, the powerful gymnast and me the hairy Austrian, but no matter, we had a great time.
That is, until this one day.
She was ripped out of my life by an Asian…

I wasn’t the same afterwards. No idea what i should do.

Because of this state of mind, i hooked up with another American.
She wasn’t really funny or fiery, but more the reliably, slightly chubby kind.
It was a nice time, you know. Nothing special. We got along well, but in the end, i just couldn’t do it anymore. I needed something different.

Then came the Swedish one. She was a sleek, safe blond/brunette. We were quite happy together. She also was the first one that pulled herself through life instead of being pushed. It was an interesting experience.
The thing is, she wasn’t very exciting either. I thought i could live with somebody like that, but it was a mistake. Again.

During this time, i’d pretty much given up and moved back to Austria.

Back there, i’ve had a short fling with a red Italian, but nothing special, really.

Then i saw her.

She was German. Purple at that! Wow. I’ve never seen anything like it before!
So i met up with her one day. We had such a great time together, you have no idea. She was absolutely gorgeous, incredible fun so i hit it off with her.
I spent 2 years with her. Actually, more than 2 1/2, but it’s a bit complicated.
Mind you, she is the best thing that has happened to me, but lately i’ve been looking for something more secure. Something i could rely on a bit more.
She really is a party chick. We’ve spent so much time together, gone to so many places, but i simply cannot keep up. That’s why i cheated on her…

She’s a sophisticated German. Knows the rigors of life. Been everywhere. She’s a doctor, for crying out loud.
She’s also a friend of the purple German chick…

This has been going on a few months now. I haven’t seen or talked to the purple on in a while now, but i think i’ll have to get things straight by next week. We’ll see how that goes.

Now, the time with the sophisticated German chick has been quite nice and interesting. People do come up to us because of her, but there simply is not spark between us. I don’t know… maybe i should give it a few more months and see where we’re going, but i don’t think it’s really worth it. I’m in one of my slumps again.

That’s why i’ve been browsing again. Looking for something new. Something fresh. Something i’ve never done before. I am, again, on the lookout for that perfect one. One that can do everything. It’s not easy by any means.

I think i’m going Asian next. I’ve always been a fan of Asians, even though they can be quite mental…

I’ve been spending quite a bit of time looking for music that i want to listen to lately. Not sure why, but the usual stuff i listen to kind of lost it’s taste right now.

Not to say that the music i found is new. Not by any means.

Let me start with some Shpongle.

Shpongle is kind of a group of DJs. Very interesting stuff. It’s very psychedelic. The album Nothing Lasts but Nothing is Lost has to be listened to in one big go, really.

This is why it’s a bit hard to really link a particular song right now

Anyway,

Another band i’ve come to like as of late, is Goldfish. Alex and me had a bit of a hard time getting our paws on a copy, but we managed.

Goldfish are from South Africa and make Down Tempo sort of stuff. It seems that they have many different singers as well for their songs. Quite interesting.

Well… i guess that’s all i can come up with right now.

Not really anything exciting going on. Anybody know of something?

See, it’s not like i’m leading a bad life. That’s what i’m telling myself anyway.

Maybe it’s just human nature that one always aspires for something better and is only satisfied with what one has for a short period of time.
Or maybe it’s because one gets things to tide oneself over for a certain period of time, but never what he/she REALLY wants.

Personally, i’m not sure. I guess the main problem would be that i haven’t really found the thing i’m looking for yet. If i knew what it is, i could aspire to it, but not knowing makes me just waltz through life with no real purpose in mind.
It’s not like i live/lived an ordinary life until this point. Quite on the contrary, by certain standards. Just not sure what it is.

There are many things i enjoy. Many people i enjoy being with and i would do just about anything for them.
Nonetheless do i have no idea what i really want.

Many things have captured my interest. Many things i tried to figure out and get information about. Still, there is nothing i can say i have a passion for.

So, whilst listening to some great music again (Telepopmusik), i’m, again, sitting at home, thinking what i really want and, again, i’m coming up with nothing.

Could it be that i’m relatively young, still? I don’t think so. I think at my age, i should have something that takes my breath away when i hear people talk about it or i see it. Or maybe someone. Nobody knows.

It’s just that i haven’t felt truly happy in a while.

And now, just for Chris, here is a pic using Lightbox!